The Power Of Chaos - My Destiny

Title: My Destiny
Author: Tori Deathangel

Pairings: B/R (Ripper not Riley) B/G
Spoiler: Ripper loses the one he loves just to get her back
Dedication: To Khristy, you go girl! Gileswench your stuff so rocks! Dawn HANDCUFFS!
Feedback: always wanted, be good deathangel_tori@h...

"NO!" Ripper held the lifeless body in his arms. The Council finally did it. They killed the rogue slayer. His sweet Buffy. His tear streaked face rose up to the heavens, "Please not her!" <It's my destiny to always love and protect you> with that he started weeping heavily.

The PTB nodded and Ripper disappeared.

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"I'll meet you at Rosehill at 10:30. Be on time for once."

"Relax, I'm not always late." Giles just glared at her. "Well…."

He merely shook his head and left. After a few more hours at the bronze, Buffy left to meet up with him. She continued walking down the street and fiddling with the bracelet she got from them when they started dating. She wasn't watching where she was walking and walked straight into someone. She looked up to see who it was that stopped her momentum.

"Buffy?"

"Geez Rupert, I said I'd meet you there." <oh my, He's not wearing his glasses and he's wearing that earring and oh my god…. Where did he get those clothes? Tres Goth!"

As disoriented as Ripper had become, he seized upon the opportunity presented to him. Did he dream the past events or was he losing it. He didn't know and didn't care, now that she was here with him again. "Come on."

"We're not patrolling?"

"No I have something else in mind." There were so many differences to Sunnydale more then what he remembered; he hoped that his flat at least remained unchanged.

On the way Buffy kept pestering him about what he was up to. She'd enticingly run her hand across his chest and groping at him, that finally he dragged her to the side of a building and gave her what she wanted. He nibbled at her neck as he reached under her skirt to work his magic there. She groaned into his mouth and he took his fingers from her wet channel, unzipped his pants and lifted her, impaling her with his weapon. When they satisfied each other they moved on.

For Buffy, Rupert's' behavior was so unGiles like, but she wasn't going to knock it.

At the flat he hoped his keys would open it, to his amazement it did, but no sooner were they inside, Buffy grabbed him and started another assault.

"Rupert?" She looked up seemly confused with the situation.

Though Giles could understand that she didn't realize that it wasn't him, she still should've known though. He was angered that she was sleeping with someone that isn't him. He glared at her, "Get your clothes and get out. Don't come back. I never want to see you again." He made his way back downstairs for some scotch.

Buffy too, was confused, but all she knew was she wasn't wanted anymore; she had screwed up, yet another relationship, the most important one yet. Her tears filled her eyes as she tried to approach him, and he shunned her. Those same tears rained down now as she fled from there.

Buffy kept running until she reached Spike's old crypt, all the while she had past and present boyfriends, nagging on her in her head.

Angel - "We can never be." Parker - "It was just for sex." Riley - "You never let me in, you never loved me." Rupert - "I don't want to see you again."

The last one really hurt, she never wanted to, and yet she hurt him again. She cried. <I can never do anything right, oh yeah, I can kill a few demons, but so can the next slayer>

Her demons kept taunting her.

"You're no good." "You failed me." "I don't want you." "Self involved brat!"

She closed her hands to her ears to block out the voices, but they wouldn't be quiet. She collapsed in tears. <It's my fault! I failed them.> She pushed herself from the floor. <Willow. I've got to get Willow.>

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The next afternoon at the magic shop was tense as Giles repeatedly tried to kick Ripper out. The door flung open revealing a very pissed Willow.

"How dare you?!" The words out of her lips caused people that knew her to flinch. She hardly showed her anger and when she does… look out!

"Will… Willow," was all Giles could stutter out before she backed him against the wall. Ripper laughed, causing her to spin on her heels to confront him.

"Its all because of you, that this happened."

"I…I…I…"

"Shut up!" She turned her attention back at Giles, "She loves you and you know it. She didn't sleep with him, she slept with you, she just didn't know it was you."

<Out of the mouths….> "Willow…You're right, I'm sorry…"

"Don't apologize to me, there's someone else that deserves that. My god, Giles! You have no idea what kind of personal hell she's putting herself through right now. She's majorly depressed, like suicidal depressed." She paused to gauge his reaction, which pleased her when he looked worried. "She blames herself for this, for failing you!" This time she was yelling and the tears welled in her eyes. "She feels responsible for dragging us into slaying, she feels she can't cut it. She's responsible for guys not wanting her because she's not what they want." Willow couldn't continue anymore.

"Where… where is she?"

Willow looked up at him with a steady stream flowing down her cheeks. "I don't know."

"Let's split up. Xander and Anya take the dock and the warehouses, Willow and Tara; you'll take the bronze and the parks. Ripper and I will check the high school."

"But who's gonna take the customer's money?"

"Anya, I can give a damn about the shop. If Buffy does something stupid because of me…"

Xander placed on hand on his shoulder, "We'll find her big guy."

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Buffy kept wandering aimlessly until she came across Sunnydale High. The charred remains of the school seemed to accessorize her mood. Wandering the darkened halls, memories flooded her mind, all memories of Giles. She walked into what used to be… their place… the library. In many ways she could still feel him, every memory of him and now those memories were painful to her. His office was no longer there. Blackened books…his books… were scattered around. She picked one up and caressed it, picturing in her mind, how Giles the librarian would react to a book returned in such condition, causing her to smile and then cry when the realization of her not seeing him anymore hit her. The book fell from her hands. She looked at the opening of the hellmouth, smiling at the memory of how her Rupert skewered the mayor for her honor. She collapsed in front of it sobbing massively, she felt another presence in the room with her, a vampiric presence, but she didn't care.

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"I don't understand. This happens to her all the time, why is this different? I'm losing valuable time collecting peoples money!"

"An, enough already."

"I hope she's okay." Tara didn't know what to say that would comfort Buffy's best friend. Tara was very uncomfortable with the silence, she slid up in front of her, "Hey, we'll find her." <By the goddess, I hope I'm right.>

"I've reason to believe that I was brought here to this reality, I just don't know why."

"Oh I'm sure you didn't come here accidentally on purpose."

The area around them was empty and white, the PTB stood before them.

Giles was clearly confused, "You were destroyed."

"Yes we were, but just as there is other realities there are us."

"Why are we here."

"To talk of your destiny. Yours is clear, you belong to the slayer, but you," they looked at Ripper, "You belong to all the Buffy's, you will act as their guardian in times of great trouble. When you have succeeded here you will move on to another reality." With that they disappeared leaving Giles and Ripper in uneasy silence in front of the high school.

Finally Giles breaks the silence, "Go look around campus, I'll go inside."

"Hey, for what its worth, I'm sorry. She means a lot to me."

Giles knew exactly what he meant, "I know, she means a lot to me as well." He prayed that he'd find her and set things right.

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Buffy sat crying over the past… her mistakes. She no longer wanted to be the source of anyone's pain. The presence behind her approached closer. Through clenched teeth, "Get it over with."

"End it." Buffy waited for the inevitable fangs, the loss of blood, the end of problems.

"Slayer." The vampire smiled <I'm about to taste slayer blood. All right!>

Buffy heard the footsteps behind her, as it got closer. She closed her eyes and waited. <Waiting…Waiting…Waiting…Geez, this guy sure is taking his time> She opened her eyes to see dust float down around where she sat. She whipped around to find out what happened. <Giles? Giles! It's him! It's really him!>

"Buffy, are you all right?" Giles grasped at her as though she would float away, a dream he had been chasing after. Buffy never answered him, but he felt the wetness on his shirt. "Oh dear god, Buffy, I'm such a bloody ponce! I know you love me. I'm so sorry for putting you through this. I imagine if the roles were reversed I too would have not known. If I had just gotten past that, things would have never gotten so far…" His mouth was stilled with a kiss.

"I'm sorry too. You seemed to be acting pretty strange compared to the way you usually you are."

"Strange, are you saying I'm mundane?" He cocked his eyebrow at her trying to alleviate the tension. "Well, I'll show you non-mundane, I can be when we get home." He went for another kiss and was surprised by eleven vampires. <Dear god!> "Buffy, I'll detain them run!"

"I'm not leaving you."

"You don't have to." Ripper stood at the doorway apparently chanting, the vampires burst into flames, and then they were gone. He made his way over to the couple. "Well its nice to see to see something turns well for me even if it isn't me." The PTB opened a portal behind him. "Take care of her Rupert."

"Will I ever see you again?"

"My dear Buffy, I pray you don't, but when you really need me, I'll be back." He stepped through the portal and out of their lives. Giles looked at Buffy, "Lets go home."

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After Buffy's shower she walked into the living area where it was all aglow in candlelight. The fireplace was lit and there was champagne poured, roses everywhere and … a box. A very small box with a note on top that said `open me'. She reached down and did what it asked, inside of it, she found a beautiful engagement, you know the kind that glistened no matter how you turn it. She held her breath. It was the most beautiful thing she ever so and the meaning behind it made her jump for joy in her heart.

Giles came up behind her, "Buffy, though we've only dated a few weeks. But I have known forever. My destiny is tied with yours, do me the honor of becoming Mrs. Giles?"

Buffy's eyes filled with tears, "Yes! Yes! I love you!" Giles slipped the ring on her hand. <And of course he even knows my ring size.> She met his lips in a fired frenzy and the intensity increased, before long no material was between them.

Giles nibbled downward, sending little electric currents through her body. He laid her down on the rug by the fire and proceeded back down to start his own fire. Her womanhood was already wet. Pumping his fingers into her tunnel and finding her G-spot, it didn't take long before she lost it.

Buffy forced him on his back, to return the favor. She ran her hands through the hair on his finely toned chest, bending to swirl one of his nipples with her tongue as she grabbed his testicles. She was rewarded with a gasp and she moved to his other nipple doing the same thing to that but with her other hand she firmly gripped his shaft and stroked it, eliciting a moan from him. She continued south coming across her true goal. She licked at the underside of his penis from base to tip, running her tongue across the head. His breathing got heavier and even more so when she swallowed his rod. She continued going down on it for several long minutes.

"Buffy, Love, I want to be inside of you when I let loose." She smiled wickedly at him and impaled herself on his manhood. Giles took over and changed their positions, slowly he pumped into her.

"Harder, Rupert! Harder!"

He complied and after a few more thrusts, he loosened his seed inside of her, "I love you, Buffy."

"I love you too, Rupert."

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